you treat life like a picture...

i don't want it to be a picture. i don't want it to be a moment frozen in time. i want to find my way out of this miserable drought. i feel like i'm just getting deeper and deeper in this tunnel of i don't know what. i start to see the end of the tunnel but it then get's blocked. i'm scared to death of what happens next. i just want it to be over. i want to get past this picture. it's not a flattering picture. it's a nightmare frozen in time. what do i do? i have no idea. i'm tired of wondering everyday what will happen next. what else can be thrown at me? i can't handle any more. i want to know i will be ok. i want to know that i will get out of it in one piece. i have head knowledge that God will get me through it, but my heart isn't too sure of it. i don't know how any being could get me out of this crap of a situation. i feel like i am in the middle of a hurricane that is never ending. i don't know how a storm this big will ever end.